Sometimes my mind works overtime, so much that I get tired of the ideas that pop up. And so much tired that I very soon forget what the ideas were and hence, forever lost, confined to those deep recesses in my brain.

I thought it was ADHD. But after going through the DSM criteria for ADHD, I was in doubt. My friend suggested "you are looking for a disease". I might be. I may not be. All I am looking for is a name for something that is in me, affecting me. Of all people, I know how much it affects me. So, in a way it might be just that I am looking for a name, to either blame or to .. just know my enemy!

People do this all the time, don't they. Give names to their fears, to their hope, to their prayers (this famously being called as GOD) to their loneliness (friends - imaginary). So why is it odd if am trying to do the same??? But do I want to live in an ignorant bliss that I am doing something the others are doing. Or is it that it's normal tendency to do so?

I answer my own questions. Mostly because people do not usually understand my questions, or they can't interpret it.

I recently started facing this problem of not being expressive or clear in what I am saying. It's not that I am blabbering or mumbling, hmmm ok, I take the latter back, I might be mumbling. Especially Americans have had problems with that - both my boss and the lady in the bank. But the other lady in the other bank had no problem!! Why is that??

Now that I am updating here, I may not be updating there. Someone asked, "why do both the blogs have the same content???" or something like that.

Dear GG,

Thing is, this is a secondary blog, slightly "official" and the other is highly personal or I think so. I don't want both to mix, what is common in both is probably a saner version of what I write (or ramble). But you might wonder why this is mentioned here then. So that I make it clear to others and also to myself. Now I know how complicated my life is being made... by myself.

Signed.
BG

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